i'd do anything.

2008 is practically the worst year so far that i've had.
ppfftt
i dont know how to explain it
but it just sucks
just so you know,
i'm the type of person that will tell you.
my life totally rocks man
and the next day
this is the worst year of my life
(:
yeah
face it
that is ME
typical typical ME
cant stand that?
get LOST.
(:
but lifes a bummer
haih
things never seem to go my way
EVER.
i'm losing faith in everything
my self esteem is getting to the point where i can only use a negative sign to tell you how high it is.
yeap
i can be a really good actress
i've been emo-ing since 12/1/2008
not everybody noticed
i cry myself to sleep
yes, congratulations, you now know.
i look so happy
well,
my expressions tells lies
LIES
oh well,
heres another emo post.
trying to laugh
but its practically impossible now
i feel like transferring to another school so badly
i dont wanna see someone in school
ppfftt
the thought of it makes me CRY
eesh
and tomorrow.
something's gonna happen that would eventually make me even more emo
there goes my month
all emo-ish
i need to find someone new..
thats what sabreena tells me
i should
but wait,
i realised something
whenever i give up on something,
something nice would happen which has to do with that thing that i gave up on
see how my life suck?
my pool party was one mistake that i REGRET the most
if i could take back what i've done,
my pool party would be the first on the list .
i SWEAR
i'm counting the days that i'm emo-ing.
i broke a record
esther has never been this emo b4
yeap
NEVER
all these things i cant get off my chest
i'm pretty sure that they'll be stuck there
and obviously i'll be living with it till i DIE
doesnt sound that nice huh?

you know what?

I'm CALLING IT QUITS.
THATS IT.

since my life suck so much,
i'm gonna try not to give a damn
if you'd try to walk a mile in my shoes,
YOU'D RATHER DIE
i BET

i'm saying to myself.
ESTHER BE OPTIMISTIC
ESTHER BE OPTIMISTIC
ESTHER BE OPTIMISTIC
ESTHER BE OPTIMISTIC

well

i got one sentence RIGHT BACK AT ME


FOR AN EFFING PESSIMIST,
I'M EFFING OPTIMISTIC!

i'm pissed at myself

CONGRATULATIONS

I
HATE
ME.

U Dont Need An Amplifier To Hear Me Scream. (:

haha..?

these days are quite okayh..

i forgotten everything to blog about..

hhmmm

think think..

oh yea,

your royal hyperness. x)

dr.bombay!

haha

hahaaaaaa

today was FUN

(:

beginning with ben kit (is that how u spell it? =P)

being lame.

haha'

he said tonnes of stuff..

u damn funny la ben kit..

huh? what dam?

i dun own a dam la!

too expensive..

ahahaha

then

why must it be bye bye?

why cant it be sell sell?

why got sun and they still name the moon "moon"

they should name it daughter

..

cos sun and daughter ma!

-.-

and then at the end of the day,

i created

BADSELL

=good bye

-.-

lame ryte?

lame is the new cool so

be LAME

x)

lol

i wrote in my sejarah book

inggeris-belanda

zoe read:

inggeris-BANANA

(:

its true

they're bananas.

hahax

nways

HaPPy BiRtHdAy ChAnEl !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

hun, all the best wishes in evrything that you';ll ever do

love ya always. (:

and tommorow

HaPpY BiRtHDaY nIcHoLaS hOe WeI nIaN!!!

dear senior, x)

wishin that you'll stop growing taller than me..ahahahaha

all the best in your PMR man..

smiles? (:

happy birthday (:

u know that blue bucket over there? *bursts out laughing*

snap..

i have so many things i have to do.

i borrowed siang che's maths book and sejarah book

thinking that i was going to spend thaipusam doing homework

and yay me!

i'm here

blogging .

my second post today.

ppfftt

i didnt go for duty yesterday

yun lynn unfortunately kena marah

-.-

dont u just love pn zaini?

i'm sorry yun lynn.

i feel bad

since i'm the Gl.

ppfftt

i gotta finish my maths and sejarah tonight if i even manage to get out of this chair.

that english is wrong.

haha

daddy gave me a random lesson last night

there was this advertisement about a tv show called sumthin sumthin vineyard

u know vineyard right?

ok

daddy: graveyard graveyard..

esther x) :huh?

daddy : u know why they call it vineyard?

esther x) : err..i dunno..

daddy : cos if they call it grapeyard its sounds like graveyard u know

esther x) : owh..ok.

daddy : and when the wine is sour they dont call it sour wine cause it sounds bad

esther x) : erm.ok

daddy : thats why they call it dry wine instead

daddy: u understand anot??

esther x) : yeah.

learn people! learn!

mummy cooked sumthing yesterday and today she found out the sea asparagus in it DISSAPPEARED

the accused : daddy

victim: sea asparagus.

x)

in the end we found out that since mummy had to cook it for more than 8 hours, the asparagus melted.

daddy's name is cleared

poor asparagus.

may u melt in peace.

(:

ciao

so you're like MICHEAL JACKSON?

lol...

errr..thats s weird starting but forget it.

i'm blogging at like 5 in the evening

cos i know if i blog later miss mummy will nag at me. (:

hahaha..

so yeah

i just found out,

what the hell is ROFLMAO?

if u are kind enough, give me an explanation.

.thank you.

i suddenly feel fat.

*munch*

hmmm..

*chew*

haihsh...

*chomp*

nuggets...

*swallows*

i'm eating nuggets

and did u know,

eating relieves stress..

*munch*

i feel better now..

nuggets.

MY SAVIOUR

i love you.

mummy cooked alot today.

she just fried chicken

=O

and she wasnt kind enuf to inform me when i was about to grill my nuggets

dang..

oh well

i'm full now.

=)

i just found out i hate someone

who?

this biatch from school

she hates everyone actually

and she's a drama queen.

(:

i officially HATE YOU

(:

high 5 zoe. we both have someone we hate and they both are from the same class.

x)

we so pro man.

(:

i'd like to call her nichii..actually nichii is a brand name

but who cares?

i just saw that name infront of me so yeah

thats ur new name

muffin-i miss you.

T . T

The Sky Is Round.... =O

hahaha...
from today onwards, my title would be random sentences.
(:

what happened recently....
my pool party?
lol
personally it just totally sucked..
*ppfftt*
(:
thank u to everyone who came
it meant alot to me..


then there was ermmm..
i forgot d
whoops!

but happy belated b'day to

ONG KHY LI
BRYAN TANG
SHALINI
MANDY
JAY CHOU!!!
LEYTON

and summore?
lol
i didnt have internet since my birthday cos i didnt pay the effing bill
so here i am,
in front of the computer and if possible.
i'd NEVER leave the computer.
(:

it sucked cos i didnt have internet on my birthday
u know,
frankly speaking,
this is like the worst birthday year i've ever ever ever ver had!!!
yeap
hush
but nvm
nways, thanks for all the presents man...
i love them all..
today i got a belated b'day present.
=D
zoe BAKED A CAKE
i got a piece of it..
cos it was so EFFING GOOD..
gosh
damn nice weih
YAYA's To ZOE
i love ya
(:

the piggy banks from josh and julian were effin cute..
u know those black and white pigs?
the xtremely cute ones?
yah
sooo cute........

ahahaha

hmmm...

what else....

argh

forgot

nways


'I'D LIE' BY TAYLOR SWIFT IS SO FRIGGIN AWESOME I TELL YOU!!!!!!
GOSH
THE SONG IS SO TRUE.. (:
LMAO..
SOMTING WRONG WITH ME MAN..
ESTHER GOT HIGH TODAY. (:


CIAO.

esther is officially emo..

I AM REALLY EMO

EFFECTIVE 12/ JANUARY /2008

Still Searching..

what do you think of me when you see me?

do you think i'm bitchy?

do you think i'm okay?

usually i never really realise what people really think of me.

even when i'm just being myself ,

i might just look like a self-centered, arrogant bitch.

or maybe an average girl who's just, nice?

i never tend to ask people that question

i never really thought of it as well..

soo..i'm gonna tell the truth of what kind of person i really am

i swear.

only when i'm pissed.

i hesitate

to talk to someone new

i'm quiet

around ppl i'm not close to

i dont talk

when i'm emo-ing

(actually, sometimes i dont even know what i'm emoing about.)

i tell people off

if i cant stand them any longer

i rarely judge people

but i still do.

when i always say dont judge me if you dont know me

i sometimes cry

myself to sleep

i'm afraid to show a soft side of me sometimes

i'm scared of what people will think

of my actions.

i can be mean to you

but that does not mean i HATE you.

i'm always afraid of my friends getting hurt

i really think i spend alot..

i can be playful

i can be really random

but i cant control myself

when i'm in a emo condition

i still dont understand how coffee makes you awake

because it usually makes me sleepy

High

but coffee really gets you

i dont tell ppl what i really want in life

i have to admit only FRIENDS can make me smile..

yeah...i have alot of bad habits i'm trying to get rid of.

personally,

i was kinda emo-ing when i started typin this..

realise that there is no 'haha-s' or 'lol-s' in this post.

(:

oh well..

Tagged

yeah..
u saw that..
i got tagged
=)
soo
this ones for you leen.
(;

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List Out 5 Presents You Wish For.

1. that remote control from 'Click" =D
2. lifetime supply of credit. (:
3. a pill that will make my hair grow longer in a day. (;
4. a tape that will shut my teachers mouths up. =D
5. and i wish forrr....100 more wishes. x)

The person who TAGGED you this: AILEEN YEO SUE JEN

your 5 impressions on her:
adorable
a social butterfly
happy-go-lucky
the bestest friend anyone could ever have. (:
blur. x)

Most Memorable thing she had ever said to you
everything she says is memorable. (:

if she becomes you're lover, u will
apologize to andrea. x)

if she becomes your enemy, the reason will be
theres not even a chance of her being my enemy so 4get bout it. (:

Pass this quiz to 10 ppl that u wish to know how they feel about you.
(whoever that has a blog)
1.Andrea Chan..
2. Zoe Lim
3. Joshua Tan
4. Eddie Courtney Chan
5. Michelle Yeoh
6. Ren Chii (bet he wont do it) (:
7.Michelle Chew
8. Chanel
9. Julian Leong
10. Goh Jo Yee.

who is number 7 having a relationship with? (michelle)
king cempedak? x)

who is number 9 having a relationship with? (julian)
i dunno.

if number 9 and 1 were together, would that be a good thing? (andrea and julian)
wad will happen to popo then?!! x)

what about 1 and 5? (andrea chan and michelle yeoh)
haiyoo..andrea ahh..playgirl ah! hahaha..kidding..

what is number 3 studying? (josh)
guitar stuff..? lol..

when was the last time you chatted with number 6? (ren chii)
yesterday.

does number 4 work? (eddie)
nope. but he should be a music producer. lol. malaysia's TIMBALAND! x)

has any cousin in his own school?
taman sea yes, APIIT smart school, i dunno.

will you be with number 10? (jo yee)
er...we're both girls. noway..

how about number 5? (michelle yeoh)
she's owned la.. lol..

does number 2 have any siblings? (zoe)
her sis, sarah, her bro, samuel. her name shud be 'soe'..
xD

how'd you get to know 2 and 4? (zoe and eddie courtney)
Smk Taman Sea.

where does number 1 live? (andrea)
sunway damansara..very close to my house
=D

how'd you get to know number two? (zoe)
i guess we just started talking? lol

is number 5 the sexiest person in the world? (michelle yeoh)
yes! (ppl who are named michelle yeoh has to be hot kayh) she's an athlete summore. (:

-------------------

Wednesday. (:

its wednesday.

=O

...

kay..that was lame

soo

this morning i woke up at 7

(which took me pretty long cos i was soo tired)

to get ready for school

why?

cos i THOUGHT that there was a photoshoot for the library card

and as told by PN.ZAINI..

i'm supposed to be there to ermm

i dunno

soo i went to school, saw zoe,caryn, jayse, adrienne and the other ppl training

then i went to the library

guess what

(:

PN ZAINI SAID THE PHOTOSHOOT WAS POSTPONED TO MONDAY.

such delightful news

I LOVE YOU PN. ZAINI

(:

urghhhh

forget about that.

then i just hanged around the library

until school started

then another delightful news.

ZOE DIDNT COME

(:

i love you too ZOEEEE

(:

eesh

hahaha

so then i payed my fees

and stuff

then the ajk class berbincang'ed

about class decoration

i CURSE the PERSON who VOTED ME as KETUA KECERIAAN

damn YOUUUUUU

(:

haih

two years of the same post.

=(

gettin bored of it..really

then recess..

went down to meet caryn

it was RAINING

yeah

then someone POKED my cheek..

i still dont know who did it

but i think i saw josiah

errr

yeah..

i SCREAMED

and i only realised it 5 minutes later.

;)

no idea why i was screaming..

i guess its a natural thing.

my voice box controls itself sometimes

soo stubborn ryte?

haihh..

then at the canteen,

i bought coke.

then caryn gave me MENTOS

see it?

COKE....

MENTOS..

equals.......................

*KA-BOOM?!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!*

woohoo

i wanted to put it in

and emma and yin ling they all

went far away from me.

(:

then they came back!

=D

T.T

i then decided not to do it.

sorry Nike.

i dont go with ur motto

JUST DO IT

we gotta play safe.

(:

so i ate the mentos first

and then emma being so kind hearted,

asked me to quickly drink my coke.

i love you emma

ur so kind

then she said

after that ur stomach explode.

=D

so FUN

(:

so if anyone of you wants to commit suicide

here are the ingredients.

*ahem*

Mentos. (make sure its mint. it works faster)

Diet Coke

must be really gassy

dont put ice in it yea

(:

*end*

have fun commiting suicide!

(:

so then we saw a CAT

meow?

yeah

it was cute..(:

emma belanja-ed me fishballs for my birthday present?

lol

so i gave one to the cat

stupidly thinking it was smart enough to know that fishballs are FOOD

i gave it to the cat

and then

it didnt eat it

i thought fishes loves cats???

waitt

mistake

the other way round

..

the cat PLAYED 'CATCH'

with the FISHBALL

T.T

it thought that the fishball was running away so it was catching it

and moved backwards when the fishball approached it.

and scratched it and bit it but never ATE it.

omg..

this situation

needs

SWT.. =.='

(:

haha

then i remembered one part of today where i thought josiah was fan leon..

hahaha

maybe it was bcos of his new specs..

lol

mummys gone to singapore

i'm hosting a pool party this saturday in occasion of my b'day ..

interested?

IM me for details larh..

oh yea

more JANUARY BABIES!!!!!

(:

-IZZATI

-BRYAN (CLEMENT) TANG

-LEE KAR POH.

(:

Tagged

Rules & Regulations:

-do not copy answers
-the tag questions must be 100% the same
-tag people after doing tag

okay- this is a random list (:
1. aileen yeo
2. andrea chan
3. ren chii
4. ernest oh
5. joshua tan
6. samantha cheh
7. zoe
8. JAY CHOU!
9. bryan ( nakata takashi fella xD)
10. lee eugene
11. josiah lim
12. caryn toh shu hui
13. amanda soh
14. zian mei
15. kay jun?
16. emma phoon
17. kenneth ng?
18. rafie?
19. kuruberan
20. henry ting


1. How did you know 14 (Zian Mei)
-through sam. we went to mdm lai for a few weeks together..gummy bears.. (:

2.What would you do if u had never met 1? (aileen yeo)
-i would cry and then die. (:

3. what would you do if 9 and 20 dated you? (bryan (nakata takashi fella xD, henry ting)
-eeeeeeeerrrr.....

4. would 6 and 17 make a good couple? (samantha cheh, kenneth ng)
-noway man...xD..kenneth? sam? hahahahahahahaha..think bout it urself.. (:

5. do you think 8 is attractive? (JAY CHOU!)
-wow..that random list so smart..of course he is attractive!!!

6. do you know anything about 12's family? (caryn toh)
-yeah..i do..

7. tell me something about 7 (zoe)
-one word :: RANDOM ::

8.what is 18's favourite past time? (rafie)
-errrrrr..driving super duper fast i guess..lol

9. what language does 15 speak (kay jun)
- erm..english? cantonese? mandarin..i dunno..lol

10. who is 19 going out with? (kuruberan)
- every girl within a 10 m radius..(:

11. how old is 16 now? (emma phoon)
-she's 14 this year. (:

12. when was the last time you talked to 13? (amanda soh)
-wow..erm...i think it was at Sktm's Children's day.. ):

13. who is 2's fav singer? (andrea chan)
-justin timberlake? =D

14. would you date 4 ?(ernest oh)
-hahah..he's shorter than me.. =P

15. would you date 17 (kenneth ng)
-dunno. hahah

16. is 15 single? (kay jun)
-yeah

17. what is 10's last name? (lee eugene)
-lee

18. would you ever consider being in an relationship with 11? (Josiah lim)
-ahahahahahahahahaha.....he is HOT..xD..jkjk..

19. which school does 3 go to? (Ren chii)
-smk taman sea

20. where does 6 live? (samantha cheh)
-no.1, sunway damansara ..dot dot dot..

21. what do you like about 5? (joshua tan)
-theres nothing unlike-able about him.. =D

i tag:

everyone above who has a blog. (;

ciao.

My Christmas Present From Zoe (:

yesterday i got a BELATED christmas present from zoe!!!

=D

thanks bitch!

(;

its a jar which she did glass paintings on

which says

merry christmas esther

lotsa love, zoe

(:

and then theres like lotsa papers folded inside

which has quotes on it and zoe's note

haha

its cute (:

and then she sprayed it with perfume..

it was soooo STRONG ..

phew!

but it smelt niceeee

zoe said

'u go home u dun open it yet ah..u pose pose with it first then only you open kay?'

xD

and i did pose pose first.. (:

i was too eager to open it

so i just simply posed with it larh

=D

THANK U ZOEEEEEEEEEEEEE!!!!!!!!!!!

Moving Back To Blogspot

hahaha..

i'm switching back to blogspot again!

why?

cos xanga sux

it really does

gettin fed up..

=X

today's tuesday

and i'm skipping school

cos i dont feel well at all

bleh

tomoro theres mdm lai tuition..

planning on quiting ..

oh well

nways

2 jasmin is actually fine

(:

at least theres zoe and ren chii there

(:

i'm still shocked that i cut my hair

owh yea

talkin bout that

yesterday kuru said

something bout his hair

and i heard

"that stupid BUBBLE la..go and cut it until liddat"

xD

oops

its supposed to be barber

i'm so smart......-.-

this thursday is

Jia Ying's Birthday

(i dont have her picture)

=P

and Julian's birthday

and 14th is Ann gie's birthday

16th is Khy Li's b'day i tink.. oops

and 17th is mine and this guy Chew ron's birthday

18th is JAY CHOU'S BIRTHDAY

and dominic's b'day

19th is shalini's Birthday (or did i get them mixed up?)

26th is Joshua's Birthday

then 31st is Wei Nian's B'day

Happy Birthday To All January Babies!!

(: